Falling Forward: A Girl & Her Lists

Spin Class*

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*or the day I thought I’d broken my legs.

So! Spin class! I must admit, I didn’t have massively high hopes about attending a spin class at the local gym and coming out the other side – so much so that I promised a friend he could have my books and cameras if I met an untimely demise. (he seemed unnervingly excited by that prospect actually, better keep an eye on that one in case he tries to bump me off to claim his loot ;) )

For the uninitiated, spin class is basically 60 minutes on a stationary bike, with a much fitter person than you telling you how fast to go, and when to stand up and pedal until you think you might be seeing black spots from oxygen deprivation. Oh, and at my local it’s £5 a pop. You can see why I was enthusiastic to go, right?

But I’ve been feeling fairly melancholy today (as referenced earlier) and I figured the endorphins from exercising (and more importantly, the endorphins from being able to stop exercising, heh) might help to kick me out of it, so I booked myself in and promptly came home from work and fell asleep. Yup, that’s right, I fell asleep. Idiot, right?

I woke up with about 12 minutes to go before the start of the class and hightailed it to the gym, completely forgetting my bottle of water in the process. CLEVER GIRL, SARAH. Kill some more of those braincells why don’t you.

I wasn’t massively sure what to expect to be honest – but the biggest shock wasn’t the class itself (altho it was brutal, anyone who tells you otherwise is some kind of human-robot hybrid that doesn’t sweat or feel emotion) but more the people in it. As an eight stone, size eight girl, I wouldn’t expect to be anything other than average in a class containing seven women the sameish age as me, but damn. These girls were so skinny, it made my stomach hurt to look at them for too long. They all seemed to have that universal haunted look of people who spend too much time worrying about how they look and not enough about who they are.* It made me kinda sad.

Being my first class I wasn’t massively sure what I was doing, and these girls didn’t exactly make it look easy. They all pushed themselves far further than I’d ever have the guts to and I couldn’t help thinking that maybe it just wasn’t worth it?

I’m not sure if I’ll be going back, I got the endorphin release I needed, singing along to Miike Snow on the ride home with the windows open, and honestly? I don’t know I can face those women again without wanting to bring them a cheeseburger and some cake :D

*I realise this is a massive generalisation and that I don’t know these girls, I’m just saying how they looked.

A Little Word In Your Ear

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The trouble with having a good weekend away is that it makes the following week a little more lacklustre than the one preceeding it. I know that’s how it goes, but I never did figure out how to fight that properly, so now I’m all mopey sad pony because boohoo my life is boring. Oops.

Still, the next couple of weekends are looking fun and there are plans in place for May and June that should see me out of the house for at least a few days. I do despise this feeling of ‘wishing my life’ away tho, so hopefully between now and then I’ll work out how to enjoy the life inbetween.

It’s Only Two Months Till My Birthday You Know

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I would like party bags at my birthday this year. And giraffes. No, I’m not going to be 12 I’m going to be 27 (on the 27th! Which excites me no end) but let’s face it, party bags are just cool – right?

We are also releasing the second edition of  Télégramme on my birthday, which was a coincidence but a nice one that we’re going to run with.

Traditionally, planning my birthday has been a bit of a tricky affair. If it’s on a weekend then most of my friends are inevitably away at Glastonbury (damn festival, spoiling my birthday) and since I don’t like mud, tents, portaloos or idiots* I don’t join them.

This year I wanted to go away, but it didn’t work out quite like that so instead I’ve asked a friend to plan it. All well and good, except for the small fact that he won’t tell me what he’s planning. Not a bean. I don’t traditionally like surprises, so hopefully he hasn’t taken it upon himself to take us all whitewater rafting or something, otherwise er, I might be down a few friends next year. Heh.

So long as I get my party bags, I guess I can get on board, but I really hope it doesn’t involve anything with the world ‘action’ in the title…

*No offence if you happen to like Glastonbury, but there are an awful lot of utter tools walking around, non?

Catch Up

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This weekend was a bit of a whirlwind one, but fun all the same. Barely any pictures taken, mostly because I was too drunk to hold the camera, but it was aces, I promise. You should have been there.

A friend and I headed up to Cardiff on Saturday to meet some other friends. The highlights included a horses mask, dancing!, a stop wanking sign, kinder eggs, dancing!, bad mojitos (actually, make that really terrible mojitos), catch ups with long lost pals, DANCING! and did I mention there was some dancing?

Lowlights: chips with cheese and gravy. Wtf?

edit: I forgot to mention the epic Usher marathon, and a certain stubborn welshman who wouldn’t stop singing along. Funny as hell.

Grace In Small Things

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(see previous lists here)

  • learning and remembering how to spell fluorescent
  • remembering why you started a project in the first place
  • the onset of spring
  • being able to wear skirts
  • the colour of egg yolks, when you break into a soft fried egg

Heart Skipped A Beat

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I cannot deny how much I love this dress. I don’t even know if it would fit me, but I’m dying to find out. Sadly, £48 is a bit of a stretch for me at the moment.

I have the cash (for the first time in years I actually have cash, amazing what living with your parents will do for your wallet) but I should be saving the money for the move to London, and not frittering it away on fairy tale dresses.


Grace In Small Things

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(see previous lists here)

  • empty streets, in the early morning sun
  • new crisp flavours
  • hot chocolate with marshmallows & cream
  • thinking it’s Sunday, when it’s Saturday
  • creating something beautiful

I know I said I was going to try to do a grace in small things once a week, and it hasn’t really worked out like that. But I do find it’s nice to come back and jot one down, it makes me more appreciative. So I guess the list is doing it’s job, whether I’d adhere to the timetable I set myself or not.

Settling Down For A Night In

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I have a bit of a love/hate relationship with the TV. I love certain shows, but I hate trawling through the channels to find them, and I hate waiting a week to see the next epsiode. I’m the type of person who would rather wait until the series was does and then buy the boxset and pig out on the show all in one hit.

Of course, being as poor as I am, I never actually get around to buying the boxsets for anything – but in my dream life (the one where I have money, a nice sofa and one of these in the garage) I’d totally be picking up these bad boys and settling down for the night.

  • Mad Men
  • Heroes
  • Glee
  • Lost
  • House
  • Dexter
  • True Blood
  • The Wire

We recently zoomed our way through series 1&2 of Life on Mars, so now I’d really like to watch the three series of Ashes to Ashes. I’ve seen all the epsiodes of Glee and Lost that have been released, but I’d still like to re-watch them. (Especially Lost, that show is so utterly WTF, heh).

Is there anything I’m missing up there, that I really should be getting into?

101 in 1001 – March Update

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It’s that time of month again, where I get to sit back and look at what I’ve acheived. Not a bad month this month, hopefully next month I can clear up some of the ‘in progress’ ones too.

Completed: 6
3. Hem all my broken trousers - I asked my mum how to do this and I can’t believe how simple this is. Also, I do believe knowing how to hem ups my wife points by 2 ;)

13. Hang some pictures in the bedroom – I did this last weekend, which felt nice, like the room is a little more homely.

16. Make chocolate chip cookies – a disaster. Not quite as much of a disaster as the last time, but only marginally less so. Next time, I’ll chill the dough.

58. Read all Toby Litt books – of course, he’s just about to publish a new one, but I’ve read all his books published so far so I’m going to consider this one completed :)

88. Limit how much TV I watch – because I am trying to read 100 books this year, I am creating a magazine from scratch and, you know, I have a full time job – I’ve found that I really don’t have much time for TV anymore. Another happy by product of all this work I’m doing.

73. Reach payout on www.onepoll.com it feels so good to finally get this one off my list, since I’ve been trying to do this for probably close to 2 years. It’s my own fault, if I’d kept at it I would have reached the £40 payout far quicker but I think that’s what they bank on – that you can’t be bothered. I forgot for at least six months before picking it up again, determined to get my cash, ha.

In Progress: (new since last month:) 2

62. Try and sell as much as possible before giving it away – I’ve managed to sell a few bits and pieces that have been cluttering up my bedroom for months. Hooray! The money comes in handy too.

87. Re-learn conversational French – I am doing this through podcasts and google translator.

In Progress: Updates4

8. Delete all mp3s I don’t like – I’ve now completed A-D.

40. Spend £15 a week for a month (excluding petrol & bills) – now onto week two of this. Last week I managed to save £4.52, this week £3.50 :)

78. Use all of something before buying something new – this is going quite well. I haven’t bought any new beauty products (barring hair dye and perfume) since November, and have slowly been working my way though all the mositurisers and conditioners I have. We’ve also been clearing out all the condiments in the kitchen – a fun if sometimes unpredictable event. (Like the time mum poured red chillis all over the pizza  to ‘use them up’. Thanks mum.)

I am enjoying this challenge, and getting to tick more off every month is pretty rewarded, but I can’t help thinking picking goals for (almost) a three year period is a little hard to do. So much has changed in the 18 months I’ve been doing this that some of these tasks cannot help but be unachievable. The question is, do I create new goals to replace them? Or just accept that they won’t be completed this time around?

Books! March Update

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Read In March: (see the full list here)

10. Double Shot – Anna Blundy
11. I Play The Drums In A Band Called Okay – Toby Litt
12. The German Wedding – Pieter Drinkwater – as an aside, this was the driest, dullest book I’ve ever read. Avoid.
13. Dear John – Nicholas Sparks
14. Fearless Fourteen – Janet Evanovitch
15. Breaking Dawn – Stephenie Meyer
16. Mad Cows – Kathy Lette
17. In Evil Hour – Gabriel Garcia Márquez

March turned into a target month for me – in order to reach my goal of 100 books this year I need to read 8 books a month. I’m sure you can figure out that that would put me on 24 read by the end of March, not 17, but you do what you can. The first book of April is already completed, but I must admit I’ve been in a bit of a reading slump the past few weeks.

Still, I ticked a couple off that I’d been waiting to read for a while (namely Breaking Dawn & I Play The Drums in A Band Called Okay, which meant I could tick off one of my 101’s in 1001) so I guess it’s swings and roundabouts, right?